Introduction
Greetings Bonnie my Paradise Sister!
What a wonderful surprise you sprung on me during our last zoom session when you introduced yourself. Now allow me to reciprocate and tell you some things about myself and my ongoing bestowal mission.
You've no doubt heard the many references I have made to ultimacy, the Trinity Ultimate, and on occasion Master Architect #11, the architect responsible for the design of our superuniverse and the Milky Way galaxy. Well here I am in the flesh, in this 63 yr old body full of creaky old joints and an unsatiable appetite for chocolate, ice cream, and coffee.
First allow me to explain that Master Architects, or Architects of the Master Universe as the Urantia Book calls us, are not required to bestow themselves the way Avonals and Michaels are required. My bestowal is a complete anomaly in that sense, and entirely volontary on my part. I volunteered, and the Universal Father accepted my offer. He was probably thinking in the back of His mind "that poor dude has no idea what he's getting himself into". I sure feel that way sometimes as I observe, in complete disbelief, the things happening on this sphere. Lately I have started referring to Earth as "the insane asylum of the universe". And so I look forward to much better times for this lovely planet so full of variety, natural beauty and untapped potential.
To the best of my current understanding my bestowal is unique, in the sense that I am the only Master Architect to ever undertake a bestowal mission, since it simply isn't required for my kind. I also believe that I may be the only Master Architect to ever undergo a bestowal mission as there seems to be no need for them in the future (but that could change).
My mortal life has been good to me in many ways, but not always easy or luxurious. Life has provided me with all the skills and resources I need to carry out my mission, including good genetics and fairly robust health. Most of my current health problems are mechanical in nature due to various injuries over the years from heavy industrial work, sports and farming.
I have always been a high energy, highly active person, and a decent athlete in my youth. Cycling and running were my main sports, and I still ride my bicycle on occassion, but running is a thing of the past due to a knee injury.
My Thought Adjuster has made certain that I received top knotch training in a broad range of fields to enable me to carry out my mission as successfully as possible. I'll share something very interesting about my Thought Adjuster in a moment. If I were to put it in a nutshell I would say that my overall training has centered around seeing the big picture (and learning to discern patterns), learning group dynamics and teamwork, and understanding the concepts and processes of systems, both big and small.
Both my biological parents are deceased, and I have a younger sister and brother that I haven't heard from in several years. They don't know anything about my true identity, and I intend to keep it that way. There would be no benefit in them knowing. We were a broken family and not close in that sense.
Much to my surprise, one of my Guardian Seraphim revealed to me, about 10 or 11 years ago that I have Van's Thought Adjuster. Yes the same Van that the Urantia Book speaks of. I was in total disbelief for some time, until one of Michael's visits to Earth which afforded me a chat with Him about this matter. He simply chuckled and told me "you're a smart guy, figure it out". It took me quite a few years to solve this puzzle of how this could be. I now know all the ins and outs of it.
To make a long story short, when Van left Jerusem to come to Urantia as one of the Planetary Prince's 100 mortal staff members, his Thought Adjuster stayed behind on Jerusem, where He tarried until Van's return nearly half a million years later. I'm told it was a very joyful reunion but a problem soon arose. Van's Thought Adjuster did not have much prior experience before Van's original mortal life. But when Van returned from Urantia with almost 200,000 years of truly exceptional rebellion experience to his credit, his Thought Adjuster found Himself holding the short end of the stick (in a manner of speaking). Van's experience far surpassed his Thought Adjuster's experience, and that created a strenuous imbalance.
When I volunteered to come on this bestowal mission (over 3000 yrs. ago), on the same rebel planet that Van was once on, a plan was hatched and agreed upon, that as a mortal I would receive Van's Thought Adjuster, as a means for this Adjuster to compensate for His discrepancy in experience, especially in the area of rebellion. Such an arrangement is only possible via a bestowal, since we do not fuse with or require a Thought Adjuster once we return to our Spirit forms. And so here we are, little old me with Van's Adjuster, a couple of busy bees stirring the pot and working like the dickens trying to clean up the last vestiges of this dang rebellion. We're both eager to get out of here. I've just grown tired of the whole affair, and Van's TA is now missing Van tremendously and is very eager to rejoin him on Jerusem, but this time with a short but very intense rebellion experience to His credit, which should help balance out that discrepency in experience between He and Van.
A few words that describe me are: adventuresome, energetic, incredibly curious, rustic, well balanced, I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve, strong sense of humor, extremely open minded, speak my mind freely (and sometimes too much), a potty mouth (I am a construction worker after all), I love the beach, salt water and hot weather. I definitely like women but I don't judge others for their preferences but I'll kick the shit out of anyone I catch interfering with children. I'm very friendly but definitely less merciful than Jesus was.
I have many similarities to Jesus. We are both well balanced types and very peaceful. But unlike Jesus I'm not averse to using extreme measures when a situation calls for it. Jesus was more of a take charge type than I am. I prefer working by concensus without a hierarchy, but that is proving to be a very difficult approach in this day and age.
My biological lineage is through the French Acadians of eastern Canada, and can be traced back to northern France (Normandy) and the Normans of Viking stock. I was raised in a French Catholic family and community, but before the age of 10 I was already well aware of the hypocrisy of that way of life, where people go to church and act all pious for one hour on Sunday then behave badly the rest of the time, and I quickly distanced myself from it. My mother tongue is French, but I much prefer English.
In my mid 20s I began reading the Gideon bible while staying in a hotel and found it strange but oddly captivating, and for the next 20+ years became a serious bible student. In my mid 30s I joined the WorldWide Church of God which was formed by Herbert W. Armstrong (but he had died a few years before). I spent 10 active years in that church and greatly enjoyed and benefitted from the experience, until the deep state completely infiltrated and pillaged it. It was a small but very wealthy church, and the vultures just couldn't pass up such a huge money grab, and grab they did. I do miss the fellowship. I met a lot of truly nice people through that church.
Interestingly, In recent years I've been contacted several times by Herbert's wife, Loma from one of the mansion worlds (she passed away in the early 70s during the previous dispensation). She was seeking my help on behalf of Herbert (he wasn't allowed to contact me since he passed during this dispensation) over a lingering issue he had when he was head of the WorldWide church. I was able to help out and he's doing much better now.
One of my mother's cousins is an agondonter and is now stationed on Edentia. I have had numerous contacts with him over the years, and he has nothing but good things to say about life as an agondonter on the other side.
I've rambled on long enough. You will see that I created several other pages with an assortment of information and updates your may find useful. I always love a good story, so if you have any you want to share then please don't hesitate.
Bryan
23 Comments
Hi Bonnie!
Hi Bryan! I just quickly viewed the new Paradise Cafe, but will spend more time with it this week and give you feedback. Came back to this original page you set up for me to test the comment section. As you can see/read...it works! I will write more at some point, but it is tax season in the US and I must get my done this week. I am feeling much better from the sinus-cold-thing and have more metal clarity to sit and work with numbers. Took a walk this morning through my woods back to the creek that borders the southern edge of the property. It was chilly, but the sky was the most intense azure blue and the sun shining so brightly. And the birds sweetly sang to me all the while I was out there. I came back to the house feeling a bit tired, but also rejuvenated. I will add here that your email reply to me about connecting with Michael as sibling helped tremendously. I hear His voice much more clearly and easily now -- more conversational than just receiving a message. He has said a few things that are causing me to reflect a bit deeper about myself. I am eager to see where this takes me. Will write more later...
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Good to know this comment tool works. It's actually the first time I use it myself. It's quite unusual for a comment tool to have formatting options. I like it!
Interesting that you mention the intense blue sky. Something very peculiar happened in relation to the sky a few days ago. I also noticed the intense blue after this occurrence. Can't say much more about it just yet as I'm still monitoring the situation. But if all goes well we may see the end of geoengineering of the sky soon.
And what a GLORIOUS day of celebration that will be when the geoengineering is finally stopped!!! I noticed I could breath better today also while outside. The chemtrails have been horrible here lately.
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Same thing north of the border. They have become totally crushing in recent years. Our eyes get irritated, it's hard to breathe most of the time, I believe it is reducing peoples sense of smell, even the snow has become flammable for cryin' out loud.
I understand some of this madness but certainly not all of it. I have long had a strange suspicion that there may actually be a secondary purpose hidden in the spraying. The bible tells us that God will sometimes use wicked people to do his bidding in certain matters. I feel this may be one such situation. I say this in relation to long term planetary matters. One theory I have is that some of these chemicals may benefit the planet in long term ways we can't yet appreciate. The UB tells us that the planet is afflicted with a great many troublesome things related to spores and fungus which are highly detrimental to our health. Perhaps some of these aerosols will wipe out such problems? It's all just supposition on my part, as I have no proof. I sure wish they would get rid of mosquitos. They are without a doubt the most deadly and destructive organism on the planet after man.
FYI: I just performed a test with the comment box. I pasted about 10 pages of plain text in it and it accepted it just fine. So I went all out and pasted 365 pages of text into the box (289,959 words, 1.5 million characters, 1.4 megabytes) and it accepted it. I'm impressed. You could literally write a book in one of those comment boxes!
In Minnesota the mosquitos are as big as black bear! And I know this to be true because I had a mama bear and her 3 cubs in my backyard 2 summers ago...and I have tons of mosquitos being so close to the creek. So I could compare them ;) I have my suspicions that mosquitos were created by the rebels as part of their plan to make life miserable and shorter for us - (for Gates to then engineer killer diseases carried by them and then to create killer mosquitos). Same goes for wasps and ground bees/hornets. I have not found a single good nor valid reason for their existences. And entomologists that I know agree with me. I have been able to control them at my place through the use of natural herbs, spices like cinnamon, and essential oils, etc. I was instructed when I purchased this place (which I was guided to by my Spirit) that no chemicals would be allowed - this place is to be a sanctuary for all life. Not a problem for me since that is how my late husband and I lived our lives. And the couple who sold it to me (Ojibwe Nations) never used chemicals either and left me with many medicinal plants/herbs already established.
Your comments about the possible long term benefit of the chemtrails is interesting and something to ponder, when one has nothing else to ponder.
Thanks for sharing the amazing details about the comment size. Good to know. I actually am in the process of writing a book or two, both of which have been shelved to the back burner while I focus on other projects this year.
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I don't know about the origin of mosquitos, but it is well documented that Plum Island in NY state has been used since the middle of last century for developing genetically modified insects and organisms for very nefarious purposes, such as introducing Lyme disease into the population with modified Ticks.
When I was living in the tropics I caught dengue fever (not the hemorragic version) and chikengunya from mosquito bites. Both are very very nasty, and I wouldn't wish them on the nasty dog across the street.
Those propane powered bug zappers are exceedingly effective. But they tend to destroy all bugs, including the good ones.
Most effective natural mosquito removal I know of is bats. Build yourself a bat roost and once they move in they will gobble up mosquitos like crazy! I had naturally occurring bats on my 5 acre farm in the Caribbean (with 1400 feet of river frontage) and the bats kept those nasty biters to a very low number. So much so that I barely got 2 or 3 stings per year! I had other nasties to contend with however. Especially ants, lots and lots of nasty biting ants, or bachak as they call them out there. Also lots of nasty biting sand flies, because the river had a sandy bottom.
Being an experimental planet we have lots of things here that have little to no good purpose, such as vipers, crocodiles, and especially the two legged predators that we endorse as our leaders. If you remember Dan from the planetary prince's staff. He was in charge of getting rid of dangerous predators, but he rebelled, and to this day the planet remains invested with all manner of dangerous predators that should have been eliminated long ago.
Last week was very spring like. This week winter is back. Everything is white again. Yuck!
Ah yes, I had forgotten about Dan specifically, but knew that the rebellion veered us off the path of achieving "the peaceable kingdom of all life".
We have had very spring like weather here also, but then the temps plummeted and snow arrived. I was fortunate to only receive a dusting around the edges, but some places in the state received much much more. Today we are back to spring like conditions. Spring in Minnesota is a mixed bag.
I have only been in the Caribbean once and didn't like the heat and humidity. And I especially don't like insects that sting.
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If you don't mind my asking, which Caribbean island did you visit?
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To be honest, I don't remember. It was part of a Carnival cruise ship package that the computer consulting company I worked for organized and paid for. It was a "thank you" perk to all the marketing reps that made their quote the previous year. I made mine - sold over $1,000,000. of consulting business. This was back in the 80's. I really don't like the whole concept of cruise ships, but it was a freebie and I didn't turn it down. We left mainland US from Miami and traveled to 3 different islands - don't remember which ones.
I have a question about your bestowal. If you're not allowed to talk about it that's fine. Your status as a Paradise Sister as you call it, a being originating from the Infinite Spirit, is this in relation to a Creative Son of the order of Micheals? In other words, are you a Creative Spirit cohort to a Michael Son?
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To be honest, I don't know a lot about who I am, and am hoping to get more information, becaues it drives me crazy at times. We descend into human form and immediatley forget who we truly are. Then spend our lives remembering bits so as to put all the pieces of the puzzle together. No one up to this point has told me that I cannot share this with you. And I am getting the "go ahead" to do so.
As I mentioned before, it was almost 5 years ago when I learned of this, and more detailed info came about 6 months after that. I was told by Monjoronson and Serena (Descending Daughter/Seraphim) that I am a Descending Daughter, coming from the Infinite Spirit. This came through a collaboration session with Donna in August 2020. I already knew another woman close to me who is also a Descending Daughter, and a strong TR in the Teaching Mission. A few days after that she and I were in stillness together and learned that we are part of Monjoronson's "Entourage" for when he manifests in the physical here. In January 2021, during a collaboration session with Donna, Mother Nebadonia came through with a memory: She and I were looking down on Urantia and I was horrified with all the damage the rebellion had caused to Michael's Jewel of Nebadon - His chosen planet. I immediately volunteered to come and help. I do not know when this actually occurred - maybe hundreds of years or more ago. It is all still a mystery.
In April 2021 I learned that she (the other DD) and I are part of a group of 19 DD's who will be in that entourage of Monjoronson's. As far we know, we are the only 2 of the 19 that are here in physical form at this moment in time. I have communicated with some of these other 17 sisters. My role in this group of 19 is to be "an anchor of stability and groundedness for the group to help us remain here and preserve the power we collect and project". I am holding the energetic strucure for all 19 of us to be here at some point in time. This resonates with me, for I have known for many years (even before awakening to the UB) that I have an extremely strong energy field. I've had many energy healers comfirm this for me - always commenting that it is stronger than anyone they have met. I know that I am holding energetic space for the land I am now stewarding, as well as the small rural city I live in. I have been told by my TA/Spirit to always be conscious of this no matter where I go.
For the next few years my DD sister here-in-the-flesh and I sat in stillness together to learn more about who we are and what this all means. Other Descending Daughters (still in Spirit form - and not the remainging 17) came to us during these sessions and introduced themselves. We learned that there are different "orders" of DD's. Since then I have learned that I am "a Descending Daughter of the 5th order". I still do not know what this means. We were told that missions were assigned based on the skills, talents and gifts of the individual. We sense that DD's fall into the arena of Seraphim, and were told that "we descend from Paradise to worlds so that we may teach humans how to ascend to the Father". I hope this makes some sense to you, for it still is a puzzle for me.
Oh, I will add one more thing. In a collaboration session with Donna (in late 2023, I think), Michael came in and placed a "Seal of Nabadon" on me. Told me that whereever I travel to throughout all the multiuniverses, that I will always be known as a "Nebadonite". This seemed a bit confusing to me. Why would He do this if I come from Paradise? I shared this with my DD sister here and she seemed confused too. By the way, I can't speak of her work, but I can tell you that her mission (purpose) here now is different than my mission (purpose). Again, we take on the work that we are given according to our talents and gifts. But we do share the piece about Monjoronson.
I just reread your question. I am not sure I answered it, or even understand it fully, and I apoligze for that. I just started typing and here I end. There is more I can share of the experiential things Michael has done with me, along with the various celestial beings that have come to me - literally, visually, but I will save that for another time.
I will add one more thing. I learned of all this just months after my husband died. And though I realized that the timing was perfect to learn who I am - free and unencumbered - in this next chapter of my human life, I was still dealing with grief and quickly deteriorating health from long term stress at many levels over many years. Then I chose to move to MN to be closer to my DD sister in the flesh. Sorting through a lifetime of stuff to clear the clutter, sell our retirement home, and move to MN were what occupied most of my time from Sept 2020 thru August 2021. I brought very little with me - only what Spirit was telling me to bring. Once I arrived in MN, my body began showing extreme wear from the long term stress. So from late 2021 up to now I have had to deal with physical issues and healing my body has taken the front seat. I am now doing much better - and Nebadonia continues to tell me that I am doing well now. I still have some lingering issues and some new ones that have cropped up (as new energies integrate and rebellion influences detox from my body), but I trust my body knows how to heal and I know enough about energy and alternative therapies to get well, including being an herbalist. I keep being told by the Spirit world that "the plants will heal you" and I know this to be true from all my years of study.
All this is to say that I now am able to focus time on learning more of who I am and why I am here. And I am not surprised that Donna was seeing my name in some of the collaboration sessions you, she and Theresa held...and was prompted to invite me in too. I think I was supposed to meet you for some reason, even if it was just to open up my vision to the higher realms from which I have been told I come from. And my vision has expanded already, which of course, brings with it more questions. Thank you, Bryan.
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Thanks for sharing! I do not know what a Descending Daughter of the 5th order means, but if I should find out I'll let you know. I agree, the confusion of trying to figure out who we are can indeed be frustrating. Some bestowals discover everything about themselves and very quickly, as was the case with Jesus. Some require longer and only uncover part of the story during their mortal life. I'm now 63 yrs. into it and only discovered my Spirit identity in my 50s, and this discovery only happened because our current Avonal Son asked me outright. Then when I made my own inquiries to Spirit in an attempt to answer that his question, the answer came instantly and clearly. "You are the bestowal of Master Architect #11", and I was told very little else at the moment. Additional details have been trickling in ever since.
Even now I have almost no remembrance of my Spirit life, but I have had several exceptional experiences over the years that have driven the fact of my bestowal and true identity home to me in powerful and unmistakeable ways. I'll share some of these experiences with you, but before I do I want to bring up a certain public figure who also claims to be a DD of some angelic order. She revealed this to me of her own free will sometime last year, and since then has made it known publicly. So I'll share it with you now as it is public knowledge. However, she is not a student of the Urantia Book, therefore her comprehension of certain universe matters is kinda wonky and weird at times as her mind attempts to fill in the blanks about certain things.
This person is (and she is formidable):
Anna Maria Riezinger
Fiduciary of The United States of America
Box 520994
Big Lake, Alaska 99652
Her website is here: https://annavonreitz.com
She uses the pen name Anna Von Reitz
Now I'll tell you about some of my bestowal experiences. Perhaps some of this will be of help to you. By the way I have also studied herbal and naturopathic medicine for many years. I taught my mother and sister, and my sister eventually became a licensed naturopath and midwife.
It is my understanding that some bestowals never discover who they truly are while in the flesh. I attribute such matters to the vissitudes of mortal life, but there may also be mission related issues involved. Knowing such things is of little consequence as I see it. What really matter's is that we complete our assigned mission mandates. In my case my assignments are now completed. I can leave this planet at anytime without problems. It's very liberating in a sense as now I can focus my time, energies and resources on helping others.
When I was prosecuting my first assignment (the neutralization of Caligastia's violence imprint on the planet), back when I was in isolation on my fruit farm in the Caribbean, I ran into two serious problems. I had a failure when attempting to destroy the Lucifer virus. This is somewhat documented in a session I did with Donna and Theresa.
The more interesting problem I will describe as follows. After many months of neutralizing Caligastia's violent patterns, my body and mortal mind were getting tired (this work was a 10 to 12 hr. brutal daily process almost every single day for a year and a half). After many months I started sensing some bizarre things that I couldn't quite grasp. It felt real, but in a way it felt detached or distant in some mysterious way.
I was aware of this for some time, probably a few weeks, as it slowly became worse. When I made inquiries to Spirit about it, I was told that what I was sensing was real but not to worry about it as it was just part of the process. And I continued dealing with Caligastia's violence day after day while noticing this strangeness growing increasingly worse.
One day I was busy setting up my water pump in the river to irrigate some of my crops, and everything went retarded! Being very safety oriented I decided to quickly climb out of the river and get back on shore where it was safer, in case I should black out or become incapacitated.
Once I got to a safer location I stood there assessing myself and I started seeing something in my mind, just like a prophetic vision, but it wasn't prophetic. This was a LIVE EVENT! I asked what was going on and I was told to stand by and remain calm and as inactive as possible until further notice. Several minutes later I received more info. This is what I was told. My Spirit counterpart, Master Architect #11 (in spirit form) has been experiencing a strange difficulty for some time already, this is the strangeness I was sensing. The best way to explain it to a mortal mind is to refer to it as an identity crisis. The corrective work being done on Caligastia's violence required Master Architect 11 to be infused with many dormant violent mind fragments that were recovered from Cali when he was annihilated in the 1980s. These mind fragments seem to have had a cummulative adverse effect on the mind of Master Architect 11, and he is experienceing something akin to an identity crisis, where he can no longer distinguish between Caligastia's mind fragments and his own mind. We've tried everything possible to correct the situation but nothing has worked. The only remaining option was to disconnect Master Architect 11 from the bestowal connection and restore him to full consciousness. He is now fully conscious again and we are working on a solution. While we are doing this we have determined it is best to keep the bestowal connection active and open to avoid potential problems at your end. Because of this you will be receiving some strange input coming from our end of the connection. I replied, understood, please proceed.
I stood there patiently as I was witnessing what was going on at the other end. A few minutes later Master Architect 11 communicated with me through the connection and told me that was I was seeing, through the open bestowal connection, was the inside of a bestowal chamber (something akin to a laboratory or workshop). I perceived it as being about the size of standard living room. Everything was of a translucent white color and with very little detail (like looking through a thick veil), and I could sense several upright personalities moving around in this space and consulting with each other.
Every few minutes I was given an update of the situation and reassurances that everything was progressing well. This emergency lasted about 50 minutes, and then Master Architect 11 was reconnected to the system, and things returned to normal and the weirdness I had been sensing for many days was mostly gone. Over the next few days it subsided completely and things returned to normal.
This incident happened at this precise geolocation, but I never recorded the time or date. I only remember that it was late afternoon just before supper time on a clear sunny day, and it had to be dry season as I was irrigating.
11.218474, -60.754978
Plymouth, Trinidad and Tobago
Over the following months and years, additional details about this incident have trickled in. First thing was what to do about this situation from my end. This was a HUGE deal, because this was one of the Secrets of Sonarington that had escaped from the secret sector! Much deliberation went on and it was eventually determined that no universe laws had been broken or subverted. No trust had been broken. Nothing wrong had occurred, yet this secret was now in the hands of a mere mortal. As a result I was cleared to divulge this knowledge outside of Sonarington, at my own discretion, because I had earned it legitimately through merit. And that is why I can freely discuss it with you now.
So what's the take away from this? I later found out that the secret sector of Sonarington dealing with bestowals has about 5 million such bestowal chambers in operation, and they are nearly all very busy most of the time (giving an idea of how many bestowals are ongoing in the Grand Universe). Also this number of chambers is always increasing and the Grand Universe keeps growing with new evolutionary planets all the time. The need for bestowals keeps growing in response.
As mortals on this planet there is no better example of what such a technology is like than what we see in the movie Avatar by James Cameron. But what that movie shows us is far far inferior to the real bestowal technology of Sonarington. The big thing about it for me is that this is essentially technology, albeit so advanced that it is almost beyond mortal comprehension
The bestowal connection (or communication) system that links Spirit to Man, is instantaneous anywhere in the Grand Universe. There is no noticeable time lag.
Some months later, Master Architect 11 was again disconnected from the system at his end. This time it was voluntary. He was actually in transit, on his way to Salvington to assist Michael and Nebadonia, as Nebadonia was in need of special assistance. He wanted to give me a glimpse of what seraphic space travel was like, and he pointed the open bestowal connection toward open space. I saw only black with several thick white streaks in the distance and slightly behind, and they all appeared to be travelling at the same speed. When I asked for an explanation of what I was seeing, I was told that those white streaks were other seraphic transports, and that a large group was headed to Salvington to help with the rebellion cleanup.
I have since learned that Master Architect 11 is now stationed on Salvington, in a special, closed off, bestowal zone, and close to Nebadonia, to assist her with the recalibration of her Adjutant circuits, and calibration of many of the new circuits under her jurisdiction. As far as I am informed, much of this work is now complete or nearly complete. This work and more is documented in the Paradise Cafe in this page: https://paradise.pikapod.net/books/universe-announcements/page/universe-announcements-timeline
I'll leave it there for now. I need to eat something.
I also was to explain what this bestowal connection business means in relation to the soul. I'll cover that in the next comment, later today or tomorrow.
The other day I presented you with some challenging questions regarding the soul and bestowals. I'll give you my explanation and understanding of this situation, and it has to do with why you have such an extremely strong energy field. I am the same way. Donna has observed this strong energy about me more than once in our collaborations.
I make no apologies for being verbose. I have purpose for doing so. I want to inform you, and I also want to challenge your mind in a positive way.
First a disclaimer. While this is my current understanding of the matter, I do not claim to have completely authoritative info on this matter. This is an understanding I have developped over time, stemming from what I learned from my two personal experiences with the bestowal technology that I explained in my last comment, as well as from an assortment of other insights and revelations over the years. Consider this a thesis on my part that I'm presenting to you now, and as usual, such things remain subject to change. I have given it tremendous thought over the years and asked Spirit to correct me if I'm wrong about any of it. No corrections have come my way so far.
I see several fundamental reasons for the existence of the mortal soul.
Bodies of flesh and blood are inadequate for deep space travel spanning many light years to the mansion worlds. A more suitable form and substance is required. Morontia souls meet that requirement and can preserve all mortal survival values across the vastness of space and time upon mortal death of the physical body. Once enseraphimed a soul can travel faster than the speed of light and is not adversely affected by time compression which is used in angelic deep space travel.
Using souls this way is not compatible with reincarnation. Souls require a full resurrection, which the mansion world is equipped to provide through the great resurrection hall.
Universe economy. Morontia souls are the most economical way to provide a path to ascension for mortal physical beings on the scale required by the Grand Universe, by providing a centralized shared resurrection service for up to 1000 planets per local system. Reincarnation would require duplicate reincarnation installations to be setup on each evolutionary planet thus creating tremendous duplication of services, and there would still remain the problems of deep space travel by physical biological bodies to reach the universe training schools.
In addition, soul resurrection as a full ascender requires a Thought Adjuster (Father fused). Those souls who resurrect without an Adjuster must receive either a spirit fragment from the Local Universe Creator Son (become Son fused), or a fragment from the local Mother Spirit (become Spirit fused). These last two prevent full ascender status.
How does all this relate to bestowals?
Ordinary mortals of "ascending" potential do not originate directly from an existing Spirit being the way we bestowals do. Such mortals are entirely new personality creatures that never existed before. On the other hand, a bestowal is not a new personality creature. A bestowal has a prior personality existence and life (as a spirit) of the "descending" category. Descenders, beings of spirit origin, do not have Thought Adjusters, as the UB tells us.
Let's fit all those pieces together. A spirit being goes on a bestowal mission and is born of woman into a biological body, eventually makes a first moral decision and receives a Thought Adjuster for the remainder of the mortal life. Upon mortal death of the body, the bestowal mission ends and the spirit being returns to full spirit status as a descender without a Thought Adjuster once again. This explains why the UB clearly states that bestowals never fuse with their Adjusters.
Next, what purpose would it serve for a descending Paradise spirit to build a regular morontia soul during a bestowal mission?
Remember, in the resurrection halls of the mansion worlds the life reassembly process is as follows: morontia soul + personality + new morontia body and mind + returning Thought Adjuster = a resurrected former mortal of ascension potential.
In the hypothetical case of a bestowal soul undergoing such a resurrection there would be no personality for this new morontia body, since the personality already belongs to the Paradise spirit in question. And how could such a situation produce an "ascender" when the bestowal personality has always been a "descender"? The logic of this doesn't work out.
Therefore the whole premise of a bestowal having a regular mortal soul seems faulty to me. I can't find a way to reconcile it adequately. I should note that there are other theories floating out there about how to reconcile this and I have considered them very carefully, but eventually rejected them as horse hooey.
So where does that leave bestowals in relation to souls? Two things are important factors in answering this question.
First, what I learned about the bestowal technology through the problem Master Architect 11 experienced.
Second, what the UB tells us about the Archangel circuit present on Urantia that was used to instantly "flash" countless souls to the mansion world for resurrection in the time of Jesus.
These tell us first, that bestowals are connected to one of the most powerful comm. systems in creation, and second, that whatever is contained in a soul (essentially information) can be transmitted instantaneously over such comm. systems. In other words, bestowals have supercharged equivalents to souls with all the optional accessories included. A bestowal connection is everything a soul is, and much much more.
Again if we put the pieces together we get the following scenario.
The bestowal technology that instantaneously connects a Paradise spirit to a mortal body, millions of light years away, and allows full sensory and mind access and awareness, is powerful Paradise tech. beyond understanding. Even a lower form of local universe comms., the Archangel circuitry of a local universe can instantly transmit millions of sleeping souls across the vastness of deep space. Imagine what a Paradise system can do? This insight about the Archangel circuit makes it very clear that a mortal soul is largely a container information. I see mortal souls as morontia flash drives used for easily transporting information from one place to another. And bestowal connections are like fibre optic circuits that can carry far more than a flash drive.
If you Bonnie, as a Paradise bestowal have direct access to such amazing Paradise bestowal technology, why would you need an ordinary mortal soul? It makes no sense when you consider that the main purpose of a soul is to preserve one's survival values for transport to the mansion world. And since your spirit self is constantly connected to your mortal self with this bestowal system that can easily transmit soul content (your survival values) anywhere in creation, then why avail yourself of only a barebones ordinary soul? Why limit yourself to a flash drive when you have access to a full fiber optic network with unlimited bandwidth?
To me this makes no sense at all. Bestowals have access to the Rolls Royce of souls through their bestowal connection, so why settle for a Ford Pinto model?
Now the question arises, if these bestowal connections are so powerful and wonderful why doesn't every mortal have one? Again it comes down to universe economy. While such a tremendous high end bestowal system exists, it's not necessarily feasible to offer it to every living being of survival value. The UB stresses several times that universe economy is very very important in such a vast creation.
And so, ordinary mortals get the economy model soul which is sufficient for a successful resurrection and resumption of the ascending career for the vast masses of mortals, and the Rolls Royce version is reserved for bestowals, which are very few in comparison.
And this is my explanation of why you have such an extremely strong energy field (as do I), which is perceivable by those who do soul work. When a soul energy worker deals with other people they detect the energy signatures of regular mortal souls, which are self contained in the mortal body and powered by the energy circuitry of the biological heart.
When a soul energy worker deals with a bestowal they perceive this extremely strong energy field emanating from the powerful bestowal connection to the spirit being at the other end. This is why I was worried about doing this soul collaboration work with Donna initially. I didn't know to what extent she would pick up on this powerful bestowal energy of mine, or what kind of effect it would have on her. So far she has been handling it admirably, and so has Theresa, despite them not being fully aware of what they are actually dealing with. Even so, when I'm in session with them I try to keep my bestowal connection toned down as much as possible. I've never let my connection run at full capacity during these sessions. Around 50% is about as high as my connection output has gotten with them, and they definitely noticed even that much. I don't know how they would handle an even higher dose of this bestowal energy.
I'm going to give you time to process all this. Remember, I love answering questions.
Bryan
In reply to #16
Thank you for your comments #15 & #16. They are extremely helpful. I have read them both through twice now, and nothing brought forth questions at this time. In fact, I sensed I was understanding your words at a different level now. And I see how my Personality plays into who I am and how it comes into play with what my mission is here. The second time through reading #15, I experienced a flash insight about a recent incident I experienced with a Supernaphim. I need to take time with this in stillness. I will share that with you when I have more clarity on it. I will also share with you a bit more of the DD 19 that I wrote of in my previous comments. I need time to process all this. Thank you for taking the time to share with me all that you have. I truly am grateful.
In reply to #17
My pleasure. I'm really glad it is helping. It is also helping me in a way. Some of these experiences were not fully documented at the time they occurred due to the tremendous stress I was under with the Caligastia matter. This is now giving me a chance to revisit these memories thoroughly and to finally put them in writing for the benefit of future generations and other bestowals.
In regards to other bestowals, I have a sense but no definite confirmation that there may be, in this generation, 10 active bestowals. There seems to be a concentration of us in North America, but I sense that there is at least one active bestowal on each of the other continents (omitting Antarctica). Again, this is just an unconfirmed sense I have about the matter.
I have been pondering what to do with about our next collaboration with Donna and Theresa. Obviously Donna is ok with being aware that she is working with a bestowal. I have no idea how Theresa feels about it yet. At this point I have no issues with revealing myself to Donna, I think she'll be ok with it, but I don't know if this would be good for Theresa or not. I'd appreciate any insights or counsel you may have on this matter.
A heads up about this weekend. We are planning to travel out of town for the weekend (weather permitting) and if we do I will be mostly out of touch during that time.
In reply to #19
I agree that Donna would be OK with it. She has been working with the knowledge that I and my DD sister-in-the-flesh are DD's. But I don't think Donna fully understands what this means - i.e. that we hail from Paradise and the implications that presents as opposed to someone who doesn't. Though she did acknowledge in that recent collaboration I shared with you that something was being done differently to me because of my DD status, than to her and the collective.
As to Theresa, I think she would be OK with it. When I emailed her immediately after my revelation in our last session together and asked her to keep it confidential, she understood completely and promised to do so. Then added that there were certain things about her spiritual journey that she would only share with one or two people, and many that she keeps to herself. She did not share anything with me, nor did I expect her to, but I sensed that maybe she is harboring secrets also. She did ask me what my sacred purpose is here as a DD, and I replied with a bare bones answer based on what I currently know.
Have a blessed weekend away! Hopefully it is to someplace warmer and less snowy than where you are now. Spring has sprung here in the east central and south portions of MN, but the northern sections will still be experiencing winter for a while yet.
In reply to #20
Thanks for your counsel. It is well received.
Unfortunately it will only be a 2 hr. drive to Montreal to attend a choir concert of a young friend. The trip is iffy right now as we are under a winter storm advisory for the weekend with possibility of ice pellets and freezing rain. Such conditions are a definite show stopper for us. We're just too old now to be tempting fate that way on icy roads. I'm a bit miffed that the organizers chose this time of the year for their showcase concert. Montreal is notorious for dangerous late winter storms.
For what it's worth. I have no personal apprehension about revealing myself to other trustworthy people. My main concern is that such news cold have adverse effects on them, as Jesus so often discovered during his own bestowal. Last thing I need is for some cult to start forming to worship me. That's a headache I really don't need. The rejection aspect is easier for me to take than obsessions.
Understand completely about tempting fate on icy roads and bad weather. I don't travel anywhere if the weather conditions are iffy. And I understand your comments about cult/worship. I feel the same. I will share a bit more about what we have learned of DD's.
Descending Daughters are an unrevealed order of Paradise origin. The role of the group of 19 that I am part of is in part to anchor their Paradise origin to the present time (on Urantia) so their continuity of service and knowledge gained is preserved. When the rebellion took place, our records were withdrawn from the planet and stored elsewhere where they would be in safe-keeping until a time when they could be safely downloaded and stored here again. That time has come and downloads have been occurring for several months now. This can be thought of as an archive of spirit-energy gained through experience and information to infuse the Supreme and create a base for reference that is indelible and permanent throughout the ages.
Speaking specifically of the group of 19 DD's: As emissaries to Monjoronson we have the responsibility and privilege to carry the energies of archival history/memory (and more) for grounding Monjoronson's coming, advent and presentation as a spiritual brother to humanity on Urantia. We will help smooth the way for his appearance and how he is presented to the general population. I will add that we don't want people thinking that He is the second coming of Jesus.
And now I have to go eat. I have always had a nasty habit of getting so involved in what I'm doing that I forget to eat. It's not that I'm not hungry, for in fact I am, but that I lose all sense of time in what I am doing.
In reply to #22
That makes a lot of sense to me, and knowing what I know of the harm the rebels did on a planetary scale I can certainly see the need for having removed these records for safe keeping. This also goes a long way to explaining some of the harm done to the Planetary Supreme (aka GAIA). The UB says that matters of archival history/memory is the concern of a certain branch of Paradise Supernaphim which may offer a hint as to your true identity.
Unless you indicate otherwise I will assume all these records you speak of exist in the spiritual realm and have nothing to do with physical records and artifacts.
I have often wondered when the Vatican archive and other archives that have long been denied to the general population will be made public.